July 20th was the day that I died emotionally, I lost myself and my dreams that day. The saying is true that if you believe in something long enough whether it is good or bad they have a way of manifesting. I believe in love and I take risk for that love, perhaps in more ways than I should. Sometime my action get ahead of me and I say things that come out wrong. Maybe I live to much in the word of books and stories about love and what it is like to be truly loved to a distraction.